Botanical Challenge

I finished a 14 day challenge posed by artist Esra Alhamal on her website. I enjoyed painting 14 different types of flowers, coming up with the color scheme and practicing outlining with black ink! I have received many questions asking me about the type of paper, paint, brushes. All I can tell you is that use whatever is available to you. I used Gouache paint from Winsor & Newton, Pro Arte brushes, Black Indian ink and Fabiano 300gsm Hot Press watercolor pad. But I can’t emphasize enough, whatever is available to you will work! Enjoy!

ألقاه في اليم مكتوفًا وقال له “إياك إياك أن تبتل بالماء”

The title is a quote by the Sufi Mansour Alhallaj

My true friend, is not the who does not judge me. They are not the one who don’t care what I am, or what I think or I believe. They’re not the ones who encourage me no matter what I choose to do, regardless of right and wrong. No! My true friends are those who judge me. They are the ones that know I judge them in return. Both they and I know there’s no truth or affection behind the “no judgement” bullshit. They and I will create the safe place for us while judging. We are harmonious and in peace with the fact that we judge. Because only then our true caring for one another shows.

“أحبك، إن قلتِ لا أو بلى”

يا بيادر عمري وصبر الدوالي

The title is a line from song ساكنتي by شربيل روحانا

We don’t want what we theoretically seek. Progress is not as clean and clear as we might like to imagine. We think we know ourselves better than we actually do. We need to disentangle ourselves from what we think we’re like, in order to discover our true selves. We are constantly surrounded by things that would delight us if only we saw them in the right light.

Chaos & Noise


كان يشع منه نورًا وكنا نظن أنها طريقته في الإشراق، لم نكن نعرف أنه كان يحترق

I don’t know the source of the quote above. So if you do, please mention it. Anyway, the reason why this one is named Chaos and Noise is because I finally accepted the fact that my paintings will always reflect what’s going on inside my head. Lately, I’ve been struggling with so much noise, and I am struggling to find a moment of peace! Every time I start a painting, and I would aim for a smooth calm surface, I end up creating too much noise with the brush strokes! It frustrates me a lot that I can’t translate what I want, rather than what reality actually is! meh!

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“من يداوي جُرح شَوقي إليك؟”


The title is a line from a hymn sung by Abeer Ni’maah








Here’s a RANT that doesn’t concern you!

I recognize that we all want to love and feel loved. But recently I am encountering two people who show their need for love, and being in a relationship desperately. I understand there’s a huge society pressure on these two to fill a certain social image and role. But we must realize that people push away those who show despair. I, who’s only listening to their desperateness, avoid them every time they start opening up their mouths. So I can’t begin to imagine how the other person involved must feel. Why would anyone want to listen over and over about how “It’s hard to find a man“, “I can’t find a person who wants to settle“, “People just wanna hook up“, “When am I finding the right person“, and the worst part is when they bring you into their despair “You’re lucky!“, “How did you find your person? What’s the secret!“, “How did you convince him to settle down?“, “Shut up, you’re already married“. I am not an advocate of staying single forever, and I would never tell anyone they’re better off single to make them feel better. But how do you expect from someone to want to settle with you and be with you forever, when you can’t be alone with yourself and calm down by yourself! Yes! It’s true! People can sense your despair, and it’s ugly. The least you can do is not to talk about it everywhere you go!