It’s De Quervain’s tenosynovitis


I experience unbearable sharp pain in my thumb tendons every time I hold my brush and feel like I can paint again. The dull continuous pain comes and goes depending on how strict I am following doctors orders, which a lot of times isn’t even feasible to follow any instructions. They’re frustrating. It’s been over 2 months now since I did Art. Seeing Art everywhere and the artists I love and follow on social media doing their thing, but I can’t is very very daunting. I want to become better! I want to take more Art classes and workshop. I want to be able to use my compass and very fine lines. I want to paint with precision. It feels like I am sinking in this spiral of non ending pain with my wrist situation. I am frustrated with my physician who refuses drastic solutions and forcing me to try physical therapy first! I am frustrated that even normal everyday chores, which I have to do, are becoming hard to do, pulling up my pants, for Gods sake, is painful. Tying my hair puts a huge strain on my thumb! It’s getting ridiculous. I’m supposed to sleep with a brace that immobilizes my thumb, really! It’s so uncomfortable I have to take it off mid-night! It’s already hard for me to fall asleep, let alone wearing a brace when I am trying to catch some Zzzs. It’s so funny because I am supposed to weigh the decision of either falling asleep fast so I could be alert for my baby the next day, or wearing the brace and maybe, just maybe, my thumb fixes itself in the long run! According to my physician “remember, this is a long journey of recovery. It’s not going to be short” #FML It’s De Quervain’s tenosynovitis!

Botanical Challenge

I finished a 14 day challenge posed by artist Esra Alhamal on her website. I enjoyed painting 14 different types of flowers, coming up with the color scheme and practicing outlining with black ink! I have received many questions asking me about the type of paper, paint, brushes. All I can tell you is that use whatever is available to you. I used Gouache paint from Winsor & Newton, Pro Arte brushes, Black Indian ink and Fabiano 300gsm Hot Press watercolor pad. But I can’t emphasize enough, whatever is available to you will work! Enjoy!

“إني بشوقٍ متى الأيام تجمعنا”

The title is a line from the song أغار من قلبي for محمد عبد الوهاب

The way we look at Love is shaped through generations of conditioning of how a relationship is supposed to be. We watch TV, cartoons, sci-fi… We read magazines and see picture, We read books and watch commercials… all revolving around the idea of the two being in a state of ecstasy and drunk on love! And that’s how we have come to believe that that image is Love. We over romanticize these practices. No one teaches us that marriage is based on paying the bills, getting groceries, doing the laundry and fighting over who cooks and who does the dishes! No song is ever sung praising how romantic fighting over who pays the internet bill this month?!!! Or who’s turn to stay home this weekend with the kids! No movie is ever made romanticizing how frustrated a husband or a wife is! All we know about love and what we expect in a marriage are those long talks on the phone, or that long discussion about a world-issue!

But … what most of us fail to understand, and they’re not to be blamed, is the fact that married people spend %90 of their time planning their chores. And these daily routines and bills are signs of a successful love relationship and not the end of it. These chores and compromises are a huge part of the “settling down” we do when we say I do!


“والناس في حبه سكارى، هاموا على شطّه الرحيب”

The title is a line from the song النهر الخالد for محمد عبد الوهاب

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أفتكر كنا نسمع الأغنية دي في طريق مكة/جدة مع بابا. أفتكر الليل واحنا راجعين بيتنا وتعبانين. والسيارة سكون وصمت. وكل واحد متكأ على الآخر وبابا الله يرحمه يصفر مع الأغنية دي. ♥️

It’s an attempt to recreate River Nile,” by Seth Foss

“عانقيني، قبّلي عينيّ وامضي”

The title is a line from a poem by نزار قباني

I can’t get over how ready we are to receive the events around us on a very personal level. It would ruin our day, friendships and sometimes relationships! When are we going to say “enough” with the culture of snowflakes. Enough with being so self absorbed, we can’t even see beyond the reach of our noses. Not every thing happening around us is about us; somehow triggering some kinds of emotional reaction. It is not necessary to react in situations we’re not involved in. It’s okay to walk away and tell ourselves “hey maybe I don’t have to take everything around me so personally, especially when it’s obviously isn’t about me whatso-goddamn-ever”!

“ولأدعونّ عليك في غسق الدجى، يبليك ربي مثلما أبليتني”

The title is a line from a poem by سعيد بن أحمد البوسعيدي

In the beginning of his book Mere Christianity, C. S. Lewis defines a human natural characteristic: our drive to be good, just and moral. He calls it the Natural Moral Law. He illustrates a comparison between what the ancient scholars, and what modern science say about natural laws. The ancient focused on the metaphysics, while today’s scientists explored the visible world and its physics. But unlike the laws of science, the natural moral law, though wired into our beings, it can be broken, abandoned and manipulated. However, we cannot escape the “desire” within ourselves to recognize and follow it. He gives an example of how we are constantly trying to justify all the instances when we strayed. We never just say “yes we should’ve lied or cheated to begin with”. We always try to justify why we lied or cheated within those moral law frames. We try so hard to stretch the laws to make our wrongdoings fit somehow. He highlights two important aspects of human behavior regarding the moral law. We know it. But we never follow it!